This is a reminder to myself and I'm gonna kill myself soon.
I don't understand why I just can't concentrate on studying and why I don't seem to think that A level is important. Okay, it may just be a piece of paper/certificate, but people these days are really judgmental and they DO care if you have that piece of paper or the straight As. Passion alone does nothing.
Also, I need to find an aspiration. I need to find what I want to be/do in future, and how I want my future to be. I can't just sit around all day thinking that it'll bring some awesome career that I like. Although I do know that I want to either A) achieve something on my own(not bound to a company) or B) work as an office lady. Okay, these two are very different but if I'm more career-minded I will go for A, and if I'm more family-minded(provided anybody even wants to marry me) then I'll go for B. I realize that without an aspiration, I won't study or try to achieve anything. Like I've told many people, my last most realistic goal was to get into Dunman High, and I worked really(maybe, not really, since primary school is kinda easy) to get good grades so I can enter DHS. But after I achieved this goal, there's actually nothing on my mind now and I can't seem to focus on getting anything. NEED. TO. FIND.ASPIRATION.
Lastly, I need to freaking lose weight. I'm like some ugly piece of shit man, seriously. I already don't look pretty, then now look like some fat shit, turnoff x E99 man. "There are no ugly women, just lazy ones." Okay whoever said this confirm is pretty/handsome one lorh, say until so easy. Lose weight very hard leh since I love food and my stress reliever is food. ):
Aiyuh if you think that i'm trying to fish for sympathy or whatever right, sorry i am not okay. Already told people who don't care not to read right. Anyway this is to remind myself. ):
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